Yesterday was WeighinWednesday. You would not believe the anticipation as I jumped out of bed and ran to where we keep the scale (my kids bathroom). Boy did I really have to fight the urges to step on that scale way before Wednesday! I wanted to step on it everyday!!! I wanted know that surely with as much time as I have spent arguing with myself about whether or not I'm really hungry, or whether or not I've eaten enough and as hard as it has been to fight indulgence, I've gotten somewhere!

Let's talk about the OTHER obsession. The one I have with the scale. During my struggle with wanting to weigh everyday, God reminded me over and over: It's not about YOUR struggle. It's not about YOUR feelings of accomplishment, or even about how hard YOU have been working. It's about the battle that has already been won FOR you. The battle my son Jesus fought so that YOU may live forever...

After pulling off any and everything that I felt would weigh over an ounce, I cautiously stepped on the scale. You know the way you step on so gently so that it won't miscalibrate and give you a "wrong reading" <wink> <wink>

I took a deep breath...oh wait...maybe I shouldn't do that because my lungs will be full of air and I might weigh more...stop it and get on the scale...178.4 lbs. I was able to breath again! Thank you Lord! Not that I was testing you or anything.

I get so caught up in the concrete that I ignore or forget about the abstract. You see, the feelings I was seeking, satisfaction and accomplishment with the "I deserve it" attitude, were achieved by the digital number that showed up on the scale after I stepped on it. When in truth, the abstract-behind the scenes, my God was at work in my favor! When I stop to think about this, the joy I feel for losing a few pounds is no longer that joy. My joy is for the realization of the love God has especially for me. It is with that single thought that my heart swells. I love you, I hear. I love you too Lord.

Father in Heaven, the glory is all yours! My accomplishments and endurings are your accomplishments and endurings. Help me to seek you first. Above all, help me to appreciate your never ending love for me, your precious daughter. Amen.